If I see a hospital blanket I get triggered.
If I smell lavender I get triggered.
If I see purple I get triggered.
If I smell a certain bath soap I get triggered.
If I see a rainbow in the sky I get triggered.
If I see a pregnant woman I get triggered.
If I see a girl Leilani’s age I get triggered.
I eat spicy food I get triggered.
I take the B or Q train I get triggered.
If I hear John Legend’s song “All of me” I get triggered.
When I cross the Manhattan or Brooklyn bridge I get triggered.
If I hear the group Aventura I get triggered.
If I do the workout T25 I get triggered.
If I look in the mirror I get triggered.
Why am I telling you these things?
Today is National PTSD Day.
Having this isn’t easy, I am triggered daily… but but I live, love and laugh STILL.
After losing Leilani I am not the same but I still find ways to better me. Don’t give up guys. Grief will come but there is happiness while suffering at the same time.